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Epitome of no life-ness
Wednesday, December 30, 2009, 9:48 PM
FARAH. running out of time, fast; says: *why are u sad!

♥ Sengie says: *hahah I sad more than happy
*cause assignments
*are slowly
*killing
*me
*inside
*I
*have
*no
*life
*now
*and
*I'm
*typing
*like
*that
*cause
*no
*life
*and
*want
*annoy
*you
*ha
*ha
*ha

FARAH. running out of time, fast; says: *you

♥ Sengie says:*annoyed
*?

FARAH. running out of time, fast; says: *know
*what
*im
*living
*in
*the
*same
*life
*as
*you
*too
*cos
*you
*see
*i
*have
*assignments
*that
*are
*killing
*me
*too
*help
*me
*where
*you

♥ Sengie says: *where
*me
*?
*me
*is
*at
*home
*.
*I
*also
*at
*home.
*sengie
*also
*at
*home
*.
*so
*many
*people
*at
*home

FARAH. running out of time, fast; says: *eh stop it la haha

♥ Sengie says: *fun right? HAHA

Hello, I think studying/ process to attaining nerd-hoodomness is frying the brains. Why I behave like that, no wonder people doubt what course I am in. People hor people, you know I know who.
Still in the process of READING annex 9, kill me my eyes are fried. Can shoot laser ready I swear cause the feeling like burning. Just now I haven't even type the header 'Executive Summary' and I just fall asleep, whatabum.

We've moved on to the topic of kfc and crispy chicken skin woooo, I'll drool if got picture. Me stomach is growling :( Farah is at kallang starbucks, I am at mooncoins. I think nerd-hoodomness is almost achieved, I'm speaking an alien language readehhhh. Looking forward to the long holidays, countdown and the new year!

, 1:47 AM
The Midas touch is when everything you touches turn to gold... Seems like it's the complete opposite for me. It either turns to dust or it turns bad, maybe just maybe it really is all about me. I really do have some issues. But nothing's gonna happen unless I really start trying my best to work on them right? I'm not saying like I've never ever tried, but it just seems so much easier to push everything aside. Ignore whatever's happened and then when it happens again I'll just repeat the same old pattern. Like a stupid film playing on repeat, and now I'm really sick of it. Sick of me, and how I'm treating things.

I really mean it when I say I'll give it my best shot now. I really mean every single thing when I say it out. I know it's worth it, but I think even if I can make it up, it wouldn't be perfect cause it's already tainted. Cause I didn't realise the importance in the beginning.
Sad > Happy, but I'm really trying. I guess just making promises aren't my thing.

2.13am, I can't sleep. I've barely finished my assignments. Sleepless nights, tired days :/ I really hope all this would blow over soon, I really need some rest. I have to use homework to stop myself from thinking, stop myself from everything.

Monday, December 28, 2009, 11:46 PM

Today I got back my atomgt, results aren't really satisfactory. So I'm really hoping the rest of the week plus my results would be better for me, or at least it'll meet the minimum I've set for myself. One mark more to a grade I'll really be happy with, crapzola the feeling ain't good seriously. Ah well, what's over is over.
Oh of course, much thanks to Adeline and Rebby for the presents they've given me. The flower was damn sweet, and the keychain was cute in an abnormal way hehe. Plus Rebecca made me laugh like mad today :)

On the way back home I witnessed a fight on the bus, is just damn nonsensical. Freaked me out abit but lucky the next stop was where I alighted. Oh and while crossing the road to get to bedok interchange I nearly died. I mean it, not kidding. So thankful for that random day that Sab and I went to far east because it saved my life.
Abit stupid but when I thought about how I nearly died, the first thing that struck me is that I don't have to do that huge amount of assignment due in 2 days. HAHAHA, yea am that stressed but apparently that is not helping me go anywhere cause it's 12.06am. About 2 days till my assignment is due and I've done very very mediocre work. Damn, the zits are breaking out already :(

Just now, R was talking to me on MSN and his dad asked him to go and talk to him for abit and he AFK-ed. A few seconds later, he typed to me that his dad asked him to ask me to go watch Channel 8. Hahahaha his DAD no kidding, like good friend or what :)
I <3 christmas/new year festive seasons cause it's when good shows are on teevee. Yumzzz but then can't watch until I'm done with at least one assignment. HOCKEY TOMORROW, so eggcited. Got to shed off the little tummy I have now after stuffing myself with buffet for days.

Nee-ways, right now there's a silly boy working diligently on a belated present haha! I made a breee-liant one by the way, gonna post pictures one day. P.S I know I look damn pale in the picture above, which is funny cause I just finished hockey. Secretly I is vampire haha, Edward cullen can go away. He glitter but I glow in dark in alternating shades of green and orange. Right I think I'm obsessed with glow in dark stuff, Sab should understand what I mean :D

Sunday, December 27, 2009, 11:07 PM


I've got a million things to say and blog about, I don't know where to start. School starts tomorrow and I'm dreading it to the max :(

I feel like a mess and I feel like forgoing all my assignments, like eff them and all. But, sigh. Really no mood, no time, no feeling.
Why do I feel like this at the most inappropriate of time?!

Beauty is form under influence of freedom
Thursday, December 24, 2009, 6:05 PM


Lack of proper updates due to: TRYING to get my assignments done before going overseas, watching videos, having fun with hockey babies, CHXR and Pee. I'd have to say that this holiday is a much fulfilling and eventful one as compared to other longer holidays. Weird ain't it, long holidays we waste away but short holidays is just chiong go out. So sad ya know, spend so much time out that I've barely finished my assignments. Even when got time to do (like yesterday and today), I just procrastinate and is really no mood ttm :(
I'm just really good at procrastinating. Who else is willing to do housework, cook instant noodles (then only eat like 2 mouths), anything just to NOT do homework? Sigh, sad. Okay, now on to real updating!

Saturday 1912o9:
The day I've been looking forward to for ages; SENIOR vs JUNIOR hockey match!

I played left back for both halves and the whole game was super exhilarating. I think the game's awesome 'cause the stress wasn't there and all we wanted was a whole lot of fun together. Enjoyed myself thoroughly despite the hot hot sun, but luckily during the guys' first half, the weather turned for the better :)

At the end of everything, I guess our efforts paid off cause we won by a close margin 3-2. You know if you come watch our matches, Sihui's face is just very irritating. Cause whenever something good happen, you watch her face then she turn around the smile is just damn cheeky. And sinister, like evil only then make you wanna pinch her face hahaha! But still love her to bits cause she's nice to hug hehe! The best thing of all is that we sort of got to know our seniors which is orhsum for me cause I've never ever seen them before, joining hcokey later than everyone else and all.
The guys' match stopped midway through the second half cause of the pouring rain :/ Went to the sports complex to seek shelter and I tried my bestest to persuade two S-es to play in the rain together but they won't budge. I think it's saddening to know that I'm so easily convinced and gullible but they are people like those two who won't even when I make stupid sad faces hahaha.



Love my team ♥

Afterwards, we washed up before Sihui, Pamela, Nikki, Ryan and I headed to techno for lunch. Then I went home and took a proper bath, changed and everything before heading down to Plaza Sing with Ryan. Walked around while waiting for Sabrina, then we proceeded to shopping! :( But damn sad, didn't get anything. Which is good, cause maybe I can get better and cheaper stuff overseas! (Have to convince myself that!)

Sab and I headed off to tampines to meet Ifah while Ryan went home. Then we girls headed to eat yummy Nasi ayam penyet before checking out the flea market. Damn fun experience uh, we all got quite alot of good buys. If there's a chance I'll go for more flea marts. So readers, if you're aware of any upcoming flea markets please tag thanks! :)

Sunday 2012o9:

Was an awesome day out with R. Caught The Storm Warriors and I realised it's been ages since I last watched a movie, Time Traveller's Wife with Deyou was the last. That's September! Haha I remember the times when I used to watch a movie like 3 times a month? Pretty dumb to waste that much money on movies. Anyway the movie was pretty average, too much action and the eyes of the guy freaked me out. We headed to Kallang afterwards to watch the sunrise and just waste time haha. It was nice :)

Monday 2112o9:
Yet another long awaited kinda thing, Crescent Carnival 6 A Side games!

(Took this from Sihui's junior's FB)
Had to report at Delta, Redhill at 8.30, was really physically and mentally exhausted having slept at 3am cause of some scary video. Anyways, of all the girls there we were split into groups of 2, but Sab and Nikki had to join CJC's team. TP-B had me, Sam, Ruby, Grace, Huiqin, Shereen, Ming and Kelly. I got to play midfield instead of defence and it was exhausting but alot more fun. Was really high and happy by the end of each match because of the things I did that I'm proud of, like running non stop, not giving up and just giving my best shot.

We had to play 6 matches in total, I forgot who we won and lost but we only had to win the last game to make it into the quarter finals. Just as we were about to start the game, it started pouring like mad. Afterwards I became really antsy and nervous, well I guess all of us were. Lost to Vjc's team in the end, the game was pretty messy :/
Best was that TP-A won second overall. Damn freaking happy, because.. I don't know. Just happy! Hahaha. Sab and I bathed immediately before heading home.

I went home, took my bath and prepared to go out. Headed to bugis and waited for R while walking around bugis junction to waste time. Afterwards, we took the train down to pasir ris for Justin's birthday chalet. The both of us went to the wrong chalet, was supposed to go to costa sands pasir ris instead of downtown. Then something got into my eye and I started tearing like crazy. Can't open my eyes cause everytime I do, that thing cuts and makes me cry like mad. Well, the thing persisted for quite awhile, even after reaching the correct chalet.

Daniel, Adeline, Nick, Don, Jingyi, Jocelyn, Eugene, Alvan and Yueming were already there. Played some card games and truth or dare, then wasted some time before Justin cut his birthday cake and we left. Headed home afterwards.

So yea, that sums up whatever I've been up to recently. I got grounded and I can't go out that much. Anyway was supposed to have dinner with R yesterday, but somehow that evil guy made me have dinner with his parents. Odd at first but after awhile it was alright, I was smiling nonstop by the end of everything.
Okay I'm gonna be overseas from tomorrow till the 27th so pretty pretty please don't text or call me, thanks and watch this space kay! :)

A tale
Tuesday, December 22, 2009, 1:16 PM
At the edge of the cliff, a Man sat alone. Drenched deep in sadness. All the animals drew near to him and said "We do not like to see you so sad, ask us for whatever you wish and you shall have it."

The Man said, 'I want to have good sight.' The vulture replied, 'You shall have mine.'
The Man said, 'I want to be strong.' The jaguar said, 'You shall be strong like me.'
Then the Man said, 'I long to know the secrets of the Earth.' The serpent replied, 'I will show them to you.'
And so it went with all the animals. And when the Man had all the gifts that they could give... He left.

The owl said to the other animals: 'Now the Man knows much, he'll be able to do many things. Suddenly I am afraid.' The deer replied 'The Man has all that he needs, now his sadness will stop.'

But the owl replied, 'No.'
"I saw a hole in the Man. Deep like a hunger he will never fill. It is what makes him sad, and what makes him want. He will go on taking and taking... Until one day the World will say, 'I am no more.. and I have nothing left to give.' "


Does anyone else feels the way I do after reading this? We go as we come, and we leave with nothing. Contentment is the key to happiness, and I think the world would be a much better place without all the materialistic wants. In the afterlife, I'd rather feel accomplished being happy with little gestures than to look back and realise my whole life was spent sought after things that are never ending. But this is human, wanting is human.
Can we change? Can we all change in time?

Friday, December 18, 2009, 11:28 PM
One minute it's this, and the next it changes completely. So quick, I'm having whiplash. I have no idea what I'm supposed to feel about this. I can't put down what I feel in words, I don't know how. There's no other position more vulnerable than this.

Sigh.

, 2:06 PM


I've been having sore eyes everyday for five days straight :( I don't know what's wrong with my eyes, urgh. Tomorrow's Senior VS Junior match! Can't wait :) Afterwards, double date with Sab and Teen. Ahhh I wanna go to loads of places. And I have no idea how to do Atomgt! Need help :(

I want to be your Valentine,
Your Christmas wish,
Your pick up line :)

Holidays/ Not holidays
Wednesday, December 16, 2009, 3:21 PM
I just can't tell the difference know? Now holidays like same as school days. Only difference is that school days you sleep early then wake up for lessons till 1. Now also same, sleep at 2/3am then wake up at 11 plus, start doing normal stuff like surfing net and waste time from 1pm onwards. Sigh, boring leh like that, imagine one more week of this. I can't believe today's wednesday ready. TOO FAST, I haven't started on projects! :(

Yesterday was just hardcore, or maybe it's cause of the lack of working out for a week during the term tests period. But I think training was still more hardcore than usual. Can die, after a few warm up exercises, my thighs like got inbuilt vibrator. Just keep shaking non-stop (Alot of people like to make fun of me when I pronounce non-stop, cause I pronounce none not non, kay just random trivia).
Ten minutes of running up and down staircases, I learnt that it's not a smart move to run ahead of everyone. Just five or more minutes pass and I can feel the tiredness set in. I think 10 minutes of that = running 6 round around the pitch. Who agree? Afterwards we did bunny hopping, pull up and finally the pitch!! \m/ \m/

Did quite abit of drills, which was when I realised inbuilt vibrator in my legs got no off button one. So embarrassing, just keep shaking jello legs. So sad cause Sihui wasn't there for training :( We had a mini match! Damn fun, though I fell and got rammed in the face. I wouldn't mind falling but I landed on my knee which hurts like some ____. Sab's quote; "Halfway look over at you then see you got dark cloud over your head". Haha yes that a very apt description :D Dark cloud = scary.
After washing up, Sab Ifah Ryan and I walked opposite school together and they ended up not eating. Techno with Ryan before Ruby and Sam joined us. We talked about random stuff, gross information overload but definitely better than small talk.

Until now my legs aching like what like that. Two mocha bubble tea and I can't even get focused enough to start on assignments. Halfway digress/distracted.

Things I have to do this holidays:
1. Batam
2. Sentosa/ Beach volleyball
3. Out with Sab!
4. Alomgt
5. Atomgt
6. Busfund
7. Crescent mini match
8. Shopping/ Exploring