Remember how I said life has a funny way of handing you surprises at times when you least expect it? How good times can suddenly turn insufferable. Or how the worst days can suddenly leave you crawling into bed happy, with a smile so genuine and jubilant that you feel like your face might split.
The past few days originally left my head spinning like it has been thrown onto a turnabout with no clue about how go get off. But after today, it seems like those days of mental turmoil were merely just a dream that remains far away, while this huge amount of happiness and contentment stays right here. Tangible, real and warm in my palm.
Heart to heart talks have never been something I was ever good at. I cannot even look you straight in the eye and hold a proper conversation while expressing my feelings. Needless to say, having to do that while baring my soul and innermost thoughts, most of which are silly, is a herculean feat for me. But I did it because this one time, I know it will all be worth it.
I do not have the slightest clue or idea where this could go from here or how things would end up. I may not have a lot of faith in my capabilities, but I stay contented knowing that I will try and I would never give up without fighting.
I love long strolls and beautiful lights. I love laying down to stargaze and the chilly wind. I love conversations with topics that shift and change like sand in tidewaters. I love the silhouettes and shadows casted by street lamps on faces that would remain permanently imprinted in my memories.
This has been magical. It has been everything I can possibly ask for, and even more. I think this is a first step to growing up, learning to be satisfied with everything in the present instead of looking at the things you lack. It feels so unreal, too good to be true that I am afraid of blinking sometimes. Afraid that it would turn out to be a dream.
But even if it is, please let it come true.
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