Stupid girl

I wish you know how I feel. I wish there's an easier way than this. I wish you know how it feels to hear the sound of text messages, hoping it'll be from the person you want it to be, and hoping it would say the things you want to see. And I wish I practiced what I preach instead of being reduced to this every single time. I wish I don't care anymore. Maybe just this once, I want to be the one chased after and cherished, than to care more and do the chasing instead. Now look who's always the one breaking her own heart apart alone late at night while her mind and heart goes on a rampage. Stupid girl, always a stupid girl.