Forget your scars, we’ll forget mine

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”

My holidays are packed like crazy and I should be feeling vexed right? But I’ve never felt so damn good in such a long time because now it’s like I’m making better use of my time. AMS AGM/Reception tomorrow, and I’m going overseas on the 18th to 22nd! There’s Crescent Hockey Carnival on the 29th, I’m psyched to be playing outfield again. And somewhere along the way there’s also the hockey bbq and gathering at Jerm’s. I want to make the best out of this short break. Hockey, beach volleyball, tanning, whatever, going to try and complete the things I want for so long :)

I had some thoughts on some issues I’ve been trying to figure out for quite some time now. The thought of going somewhere else to start anew is so tempting, it’s like dangling candy infront of a child. Furthermore, if you add on everything that has happened, the idea of a getaway seems perfect. Sometimes, the easiest solution doesn’t require much and sometimes the easiest solution may very well mean running away from things. But not all things are bad though. There’s a million things that no matter how hard you shake, you can’t bear to walk away from because you know deep inside that this could very well be one of the best things in your life, and walking away right then wouldn’t guarantee anything but broken hearts, disappointment, and throwing all that good away. Good things like friends and family who love you endlessly and read your mind like an open book. You have to weigh the costs of trading all that away for something that you want all your life, something you need to become who you really want to be. To start all over again and be a whole new different person, cut off the path you’re already taking and start drawing a perfect one… It all comes back to a perfect circle. I know that if I was given a choice, if I had the ability to, I’ll go for what my heart really wants and what I’ve been working towards all my life. But at the same time, every single night, I will squeeze my eyes shut tightly, cross my fingers and hope and pray that people would wait.